Little Victories
By John W. Mefford
I’m not the first, and I certainly won’t be the
last. So, you can hardly call me an early adopter or trend setter. What stupendous
feat have I accomplished that garners such an introduction? I am an author. Let
me amend that a bit…I am a self-published author, better known as an “Indie.”
My new title became official on November 1…rather,
11.1.11, which is how I marketed the launch date for COMMITTED, my debut novel.
That was one of many decisions I’ve made in the last several months. Some are
known by many, some are only known by me.
Life as an independent anything can be dubious.
Self-doubt is at least a minority partner, sometimes the lone voice echoing in
my mind. Not about the big creative decisions, usually. Where to take a story,
how to spice up a scene, when to toss a curveball into a plot…those are natural
blood-rushers. I might have an internal debate, and I might change my mind a
dozen times, but that’s what this writer lives for. It’s the 32 other decisions
that need to be made, sometimes daily. It’s deciding for which of those
decisions you absolutely need another voice. You have to pick your spots when
you’re an Indie asking for favors.
When you initially cross the railroad tracks to the
other side, away from the purebreads to the land of mutts, you have no idea
what adventure is only steps away. One moment you can be gazing across the
scenic valley and only see a lush tree line with jagged mountains acting as a
perfect backdrop. It’s majestic, yet simple. On the very next step your foot slips
like it’s lined with grease and you tumble down a 50-foot slope landing in a
pool of mud (think of Michael Douglas in “Romancing the Stone.”) Once cleaned
off, you see snakes slithering on vines, you hear strange noises, and the blossoming
trees block out the sun. It’s a world of unknowns, where you realize you have
to navigate it without any certainty of where you’re going, let alone if you’ll
ever get there.
For many in this position, they flourish. They are
independent-minded people who thrive when working alone. I’m only partially
built that way. I have a need to not be mixed in with the herd of cattle, but
my background is corporate America. I was a manager, a leader of people. I was
the visionary, the one who could see the ominous clouds before most and create
a path to success. I enjoyed coaching people and working as a team to accomplish
any far-fetched goal.
But life as an Indie is different. On the very same
day, I can be the role player, the grunt who sweeps out the garage, and the
star athlete. While others provide loads of support, I am my own coach and my
most fervent fan. There are no pats on the back, no raises, nor any bonuses or
stock awards. In fact, my motivation has mostly changed. Sure, I hope to be
able to sustain a living writing novels and maybe even slide into film. But each
task I accomplish – large or small – I consider a little victory. I may be the
only person who witnesses it, but I accept each little victory as a win for the
home team…my team.
Don’t get me wrong. There are plenty of good people
out there…plenty. But early on, I couldn’t tell the difference. I was lost in a
sea of misguided information. And with patience listed low on my virtue list,
frustration set in on a daily basis. Yet as I took baby steps, I would receive
an occasional helping hand or encouraging comment. And the first five-star
review gave me the ultimate high. I re-built my professional psyche one brick
at a time, personally taking ownership of every aspect of my new career. I positioned
each clay block, threw some mortar on it and pressed on it until I believed it
wouldn’t budge, allowing me to move on to the next brick and the next.
As a proud Indie author, I don’t holster a whip, and
a little monkey isn’t snickering at my obvious puns, but I am a crusader carving
out my own unique path, one little victory at a time. And I realize I’m not the
last crusader…nor do I want to be.
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I wanted to take a brief moment to thank all the
readers who’ve provided this debut author some great early memories. I’m
honored that you’ve given me the opportunity to move you…just as my first story
moved me enough to craft it.
Speaking of stories, I’m more than knee-deep in Book
Two of The Michael Doyle Chronicles. I still have some carving to complete, but
I’m very excited about the new story, how characters will be pushed to their
limits, and who won’t make it out alive. The book title is still a work in
progress, but my tentative release date is March / April 2012…just around the
corner in the literary world. Stay tuned. And if you haven’t had an opportunity
to read COMMITTED, I invite you to take the plunge and enjoy the journey!
Great post and great imagery! I totally saw you doing the Michael Douglas slip and fall! Good luck as an Indie - it's good to know that indie doesn't mean alone!
ReplyDeleteGreat Post!!!
ReplyDeleteI can relate so well to this post. I feel the highs and the lows of being an indie. It's such a rush and a stifling experience. Cheers to continuing the adventure!
ReplyDeleteI've done the Michael Douglas slip and fall more than once:) I may not be as coordinated as I once was, but I try to learn from my stumbles along the way.
ReplyDeleteIndeed, cheers to all who pursue their dreams!
It is about pursuing a dream.
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